Well I woke up at two in the fucking morning for the simple reasons: one, I am an empath and the other being I did not finish my fucking energy drink until late! That being said the sleep What Satisfactory at it wasn’t the best sleep I had. I must tell you that right now that it wasn’t one of my best sleeps, but it’ll do for now! That being said I did not have a nightmare or anything of that nature I just woke up and I was a bit hungry that was not on my list For 2024 at least the final stage of 2024 I don’t like waking up this early. It kind of drives me insane to be honest with you! I wish not to wake up in the week hours but I was bored shitless and wanted to get the day rolling that being said…….merry Christmas! I must say that I had a load of crapp on my plate when I got on my plate mentally! For one some person write this on my YouTube! I
“Why does the algorithm recommend mentally ill people to me?” As you can tell this one over very well with me I’m being sarcastic as I do have a mental illness. I have OCD as well as ADHD autism and I am pretty sure there is some debate about PTSD, but I’m not gonna worry about that one that means said why this person have to say something so abilist…..because they had nothing better to do! But I didn’t help very much for calling that person a j-e-r-k! I was not happy about Being lectured about it nor was I happy to call that person the j bomb! That being said It had to be done at the time but I will not being that again! So that was on my plate when I when I went to bed! The simple fact was that I pissed people off all the time on line rarely intentionally as I was using good manner but earlier this year some other person approached me on line and that did not turn over will, that being said …..I told that person to “fuck off” and that did not go over well with that person! She tried to black mail me…….and I was not going to have it! This time it was because I called this abilist person a jerk! Sorry but I call them on it……I hate abilism, it is where you end up being in a hole over someone who has a disability or you discriminate against someone has a disability or illness. This is something obviously I have been a Victim of plenty of times in my life not that I have a wheelchair but yes, I do have mental illness and mental disabilities, but I’ve overcome them those some people still think I’m an idiot because of it and well that’s their problem not mine now not my circus not my monkeys now because I’m not gonna confront these people online! This time it was as much of a shit show as before. But this will be the last time I confront people online because they feel bad about themselves and well you just don’t do that kind of crap during the holiday season or any time of the year for that matter. So that was on my mind! But also another and more posted thing is still on my mind……”what the fuck is under the Christmas tree!” That being said that was one question that kept me up all night for years on end for I never will now what is under that damn tree. Let’s say that this is the time of year when I am like a TSA agent and wanting to know what is under nether the tree. As I said I wish to find out this was the first time the night before I got my handpan I was up all night and that was just a Christmas party! Speaking of which I ended up doing a music video of the hand pan! It was all quiet night, it was a well calculated Christmas handpan carol that I did and I post it on YouTube! I am proud of this beautiful peace I composed! That being said I will be starting a hand pan this next year! It is interesting how that sucker sounds! It is very nice music! As far as this new year is concerned I have a tattoo to get, my father’s memorial tattoo and then another one that Iam getting later on which is this, a Sepharic angel! These Cryptids are something of a higher angel that has get this 6 wings! The are very interesting! They are kind of interested to see!  This is what the later tattoo will look like! And as I said I am getting a tattoo for my father! He went to the spirit world in October 15, 2024 in the afternoon! As you can tell I was not a happy person on this affair and that was when I decided to get a tattoo for my father! I already have one for my mother …..I shall take you on a tattoo tour tomorrow or later today! Depending on my mood! I must say that the mood will be good so that being said….. what the Halloween is under that fucking tree Well I will never know! That being said! I am also going through a med increase/ change and I am doing better since earlier in the month or so I think….. before usually when I got a med change, it doesn’t always go over well especially when I was in my family home and it was never always the best option for me because I am stubborn headed and stuff like that while I am still stubborn headed but this time I made sure that I will not end up back on the same damn dose as I would before the med change that being said I feel a little bit more vibrant than usual and stuff like that it’s a lot easier on my squirrel. That being said I would rather just deal with crystals instead of goddamn medication medication I must admit is a pain in the ass. You either take it or you choke on it. It’s not very fun. I don’t like taking medication. I’d rather carry around a few crystals and be done with a day. That’s just usually how I deal with it instead of scarfing noun well what I think is toxic chemicals and stuff like that! That being said it is ok to take a few pills but know a whole handful and at each fucking meal! I hate when the dissolve in your mouth or if you choke on them….that yucky taste! |
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