December 28, 2024 a.m.

Today I tried it on my new black lipstick! It was very interesting to wear!  I got it yesterday as a Christmas present to me!  Also I got some new nose rings for stacking my septum!   Some would argue that it is stretching but it is a little different then stretching.   You put multiple rings in the hole and away you go just do the after care as if it was a fresh piercing!  That is why I could not write last night worth a shit!  Not because I was in pain, for I don’t feel anything physically!  But this I will say the black lipstick was interesting!  I also got red and white lipstick!  That should be interesting, the white.  I love the black lipstick as I am more goth than anything else!  I am have been as I said more less goth since high school ….. that being my parents thought it would be a phase but it is not a phase!   As I am more into being unique and have an appreciation for the beautiful and the strange!  Strange being in a good way!  I have been creative and nerdy all my life and know I am able to rightfully express that as an adult!   I had Black lipstick once before I loved it wearing it that was but it ran out and I didn’t have enough money at least this time. I have something to do with that. I have a backlog on on my Amazon save later chart!   That being said I hope I don’t run out of the black!  I am have been goth for almost 20, or 19 years!   I am not an old school goth but  I am getting close to it!    I think this is suiting to me and I will be wearing my new lipsticks more often then not!   I am a sucker for make up, since I started wwatching Bailey Sarian!  She was what I and who influenced me to find my more feminine said!   

 

I remember hearing that name when my friend meantioned her one day during the Covid pandemic!  I kept earring the name until about 2 years ago my curiosity got the better of me….. and boy I am glad it did!   I started watching Bailey Sarian and I never looked back that being said, I love the murder mystery and make up mondays!  That was what I like is hearing about the giblet heads who dont wrong, while she does her make up and enjoying the consequences of the criminals (usually)!    I must say it is interesting to watch true crime stuff on YouTube:   I am not one to worship serial killers as they are assclowns!  So I like hearing about how they did not get away with what they did!  That being said   I always when I was a kid; watched fbi files, forensic files, the new detectives and what have you at the time very interesting. But the entertainment was seeing the jerks get the books thrown at them when found out!    Also this was able to help discover my ancestry just by my facial features and stuff!  That was when I suspected that I was part Asian!  That was before my father / and the DNA test noted this.   I was able to trace my ancestry from northwestern china and Tibet and India as well as the Stan’s!  And Iran!  That being, I am not an evil person as jackals think!  Those racist people have midgenderized  me and called stupid names in the past !  It don’t like fucking racism, and those who practice it!  It is a nasty habit that people practiced especially during the Covid pandemic,   You had big cheek bones you were a fucking target for bigots!  I would rather not get into that!

Also I am working on a handpan album soon which will be called Star Trek……yes as in the show Star Trek!  One I love this show series!  The other my friend who saved me from breaking up with my boyfriend also loves starktrek!   His name is M.   And M did and gave me a lot of things for me especially the apple pen……how man tattoos have I design because of this apple pen and what have you that I created!  Also I am writing poetry because of a book he gave me which was called soft thorns…….small volume. But damn good poetry……the best book I read in 2024 aside form crescent city and fourth wing!  As you can tell I either face my demons or I like to escape I to a fantasy world at other times because of that!  

Noteworthy I usually face my demons, but when I read fiction I love to escape to a random world!  The same with the tv!   You wouldn’t get me to watch the news as I was when I was younger as the news was now more disappointing and more apocalyptic since the Covid pandemic!  That being said any one who reads or watches the news on purpose in, my opinion is massocistic!  I apology to those who like current events and for butchering that world!      But I just don’t watch the news on stuff that is just fucking negative!   I am sure you will understand.    

But this I will say is if I want to know something I will read about book, or look it up!   I don’t give a care about all the ugliness in the world!  As far the only way I stay informed is through divination!  I don’t like the idea of killing trees to show some garden gnomes face or what have you that is so negative!   Truth be told my mother loved the news but I was starting to depart from it about 5 or 6 years ago…..again never looking back!   I rather my sci-fi, fantasy and horror!  :)