December 27, 2024 Am

 This I say on friendship

That the only down side to friendship 
Is that when will the betray you
Is that when do the break your
Heart
For this is the springer show
Note the dope show as 
There will be trauma
And drama

I decided to end it with my boyfriend for the simple reason is that I fear losing my self and who I am!  I know that sounds like I am being narcissistic but it has to be done for the sim,e fact that I fear losing my identity…..not as in identity theft but the idea of lying and conforming not something I am not!  That being said I made my decision and that I was going to break up!  It seems like this might be thinking out of my ass, but I am not.    I have thinking about this with all my mind body and soul for the longest time about a few days that is when you know you have to tack action!   2 days or more you do something about that reoccurring decision!  That was when I decided to be single for a long long long time!   That being  I will not be dating for long time if ever!   I had I strange dream yet again!  This time it was about a serial killer!  I don’t know why I had that dream but for the fact that I was watching criminal minds and that!   I going to write about the idea of  the dream I had but it was not that long before I fell back asleep and had said disturbing dream!  Or should I say nightmare.   It was pretty  disturbing to see the way this person was killing people. I did not pay to much attention  to the dream as it was a fictional world!  But it will get me ideas for this novel that I am working on!  Which is about a ghost of a girl called Jo Cobe! I will give you the description of the book!

Think for a second that your imaginary friend is the ghost of one of the younger serial killers who started their murderous career at age 10 and died at age 12!   Will you become an outcast because of it or will people get you help for what you are going through!  This is exactly what happened to 13 year old Sam who was being bullied and made a friend out of Jo Cobe only to find out that she was a murderous ghost from the 1950's!  What will happen to Sam Eric  and what will happen to her sanity and soul!

Sounds pretty disturbing to read but it is horror fiction!  It is about spiritual possession  and the idea of an evil girl.  That is what I am trying to do as well as the screenwriting project as I am working on!   That was what happened to the book that I got from my friend!  I also starting to watch the reboot of unsolved mysteries!  If you remember that show with John stack htt being said this one is much creepier than the one I watched as  a kid!  This one it talks about the creepypasta and the moth man and stuff like that!  I watched the movie moth man and enjoyed it as a 16 year old but it gave my nightmares for the week I must mention!  If I remember the night mare was of a samurai in black armour, so black that it would suck in your soul!  That being said ….. I was frightening. But I was years ago.  I have since watched the movie about the moth man again and it was more enjoyable than the first time because I knew that it might or might not be real!   But know that I think of this it is likely to be real as I had seen something about 4 years ago where I  was certain that I saw Sirenhead of in the distance and I did not have my fucking iPad or phone!  I was talking about that for months even years.  To be told I say the Sirenhead again in 2023 when driving by that was when I had my camera and when to take a picture!  That being  I did take the picture of the creature or entity!

To be honest most people thing these things are either: art (Sirenhead) or myth (moth man and others)!   That I must tell you at risk of sounding crazy that I believe these are real to an extent it really depends on the person and the rhetoric!  I on the other hand have an open mind to this stuff!

That being said, yes I do sound crazy at times but at least I am honest to a flaw!  But I rather be that way than denying and lying!   

Other than that today will be a slow day so to bear with me on that!  That is what is happening to day!  I might read and work on the actual screen play!  It will end up on Wattpad at one point! What I am think about the play is that one of the characters has a “coma dream”and ends talking to a magic 8 ball not unlike the kind that I got the other day but also to show it as the creator of the universe!  That being said I don’t like putting face on the faceless and who we can’t comprehend what they look like so I substituted with a talking magic 8 ball!  I think that will be tasteful 

That being I will end this one a quote about what is crazy and what it isn’t! So hear it goes!

One persons can be called crazy 

For their observations on society 

When other people conform to 

It 

At the risk of selling their souls

- flea zombie